I haven't slept a full night since September

I have’t slept a full night since September

I can almost tell you the exact date

if you showed me a calendar

I have not climbed into my bed

and closed my eyes

to wake up with the sun

for months

And I don’t see it happening again,

anytime soon.

For me, it’s a tragedy.

I love to sleep.

It’s my favorite thing (besides ice cream)

in the whole world.

I’m not tossing and turning at night

because of worries or concerns

I have an old dog

who has an old routine

and it’s too late to change things now.

If things were to change

it would be forever

and I’m not ready for that, just yet.