Starting out strong

It begins each new year

I say: this is the time

I’m going to get it together

I’ll be more organized

Get my tasks done

Create lots of things, 

reach my goals 

follow through

I alway start out strong 

with my calendars and planners 

my note books and pens.

My lists and sticky notes

I always start out with good intentions

My weeks are full, my mind is focused.

I think:

This time will be different 

And it is, for a while. 

Work gets completed 

boxes are checked

Tasks crossed off 

But eventually life creeps in

In the form of a sick pet, 

or worse, a sick person.

Then whole days fall empty from the calendar 

because now the hours are not filled with getting things done 

but with waiting and worry

Long conversations and arrangements

(A different type of note taking and calendar making)

There is no time 

(or energy) 

for good intentions

They will have to wait 

until next week 

or month

Or next year. 

When I make a promise
(to myself) 
 

This time

I’ll start out strong
 

Again.