Life is too short to wear a suit that doesn't fit

This thought occurs to me as I struggle to fit into one that I had packed for a trip.

I knew as soon as I tried to put it on.

This doesn’t fit. 

It's too tight. 

It will make my back hurt if I wear it all day.

How do I know this? Because I had worn it before and I know it doesn’t fit.

Why am I struggling with this?

My body has changed.

Frankly, I don’t even know when I had purchased it.

But here I am struggling to get it on.

What am I doing?

I’ve been here before. 

Growing up on hand me downs. Things on sale.
Thrift store finds.

Wearing clothes until they just didn’t fit anymore, but not having enough money to get something new. 

Sometimes a swim suit was found at the bottom of a bag of clothes.

New to me. 
 

A little loose under the arms, longer than I would like.

But it would do. 
My friends would not know that it wasn't new.


That was a long time ago.
I decided it's time for a new suit.